I lost my job...

over a story i did…
how do i feel about it?
i know what i wrote was right-its backed with facts, documents, data-spoke to all people concerned-and even the people i critiqued (not directly-it was never meant to be that-but how can one look the other way-when a park is dying of neglect, and misplaced priorites) called back to say that it was unbaised …
i can only hope that it will help..that it may serve some constructive purpose, though in one sense i have long lost the idealism that got me into this in the first place-that the pen will change the world-or atleast that it will help affect a change…too many years in the media have convinced me that the pen is easily bought..still, in many ways-i know that it does make a difference however small-when a question is raised in parliament, or your artcile helps fight a courtroom battle, or when a child has carefully made a scrapbook of your artciles, or when you get a call from bhubneswar because your column was missing-or the college kid who wants to help, anywhich way,..that’s when you feel it is all worth it..
but i meander—

i feel terrible-not because i lost my job, but because wildlife lost a voice-a platform…..